I don’t know anymore how to explain to people why I’m not talking to them. To be honest I haven’t tried to but still. I should mention that I haven’t been feeling like talking to anyone the last… okay, since mid-March. It’s almost two months since then and I’m still doing everything I can to stay away from people.
Not that I haven’t seen people. I have gone out with my friends for coffee or nights out. Well, once a week or once in two weeks then hide away for a while.
I feel at peace thou. Very serene in my mind and the heart. I have been reading everywhere. Even in my sleep, I dream of reading. Yes, I have been reading in the washroom too. Or should I say toilet?
I can’t seem to stop watching Seeb, Dagny – Drink About video. I’m obsessed. You know that thing where when you are reading a romantic poem or piece you always have someone at the back of your mind. Yeah, that. I don’t do that anymore. I don’t have anyone to think about. This is a first for me. I have officially cleansed my mind completely.
I started cooking. And as a discipline, I can’t buy food anymore. Even when I go out. I did go out for coffee on Tuesday and I came home sometime past 10:30 and I still cooked.
I don’t know when I will get back to talking to people but I guess my mind is waiting to be ready for it.