I have been thinking about the future. I never care much about it but I was just wondering. Random people have been asking me about it. You know the usual about having kids and what not. I tell them the truth. I can’t see what happens in my life. Will I have kids? I don’t know. Do I want to? I don’t know. Maybe I’m just to live my life the way I have always done. Without the influence of society. In my society, we are supposed to live in a straight line and do what is expected of you. Marry at the right age. Have kids. Pray. Take care of your parents as the get old. Be what you are meant to be. But I have never been good at that. I don’t know how to follow a straight line. I get tired when I interact with people. I love being alone. I want a new tattoo. Grow my hair long. Does my society like that? Not one bit. But that’s not my problem. They can do and say what they want but expectations have never been in my mind. I have been disappointed a lot by the people who were supposed to raise me. I don’t care much what they think about me.
So lately, I have wondering about the future and what happens to it if I keep going my own way. I know I will be happy because I never had to put my happiness on anyone else or depended on anyone else making me happy. If they do, I take it with open hands and return the gesture. And if they don’t I always make a point of walking away. I don’t know about what will happen to the future because I don’t know how I feel about most things that society expects. If something makes me happy and content I always follow through. Will having kids make me happy? I don’t know. Does my close family having kids make me happy? Yes it does. What I know is that what the future is a place I haven’t yet gotten to yet. I’m old enough to know what I want and right now, I just want what makes me happy. And I know I will always want that.
Lately, I have been too detached from everything. Plus I have never liked people anyway. Like it has been said before, HELL IS OTHER PEOPLE.